Daddy..Where Art Thou?

Yes I know this site is called "Luv N Ish" but this post has A LOT to do with my love life and lack there of it really..interested to take a read into the my world? By all means..come along, it may shed some light on how I react, why I am so persistant in everything that I do.



"Daddy, Where Art Thou?" Well see, I know where he is..He lives right off of the same main street I live on..he is really like only 15 minutes from me..but I do not see him. So, on Father's Day this day is depressing and sad..it leaves with the thoughts of "what did I do do that was so wrong that my OWN father doesn't want a relationship with me" It leaves me thinking "the ONE man I am supposed to count on was never there for me"..it leaves me thinking "I have to prove myself to everyman because I don't want to disappoint them and have them leave like my father did" but in the back of my mind if they do feel the need to move on, I always knew they would because every man seems to disappoint me.



A complex way of thinking right? Yes, I know..but I have been like this for years. How can a man not want to have a relationship with his own child? Not ready? Too scared? Eh, who knows and for sure I do not have that answer and do now want to sit back and even TRY to understand his thought process.

So, that leads me into my feelings of a man. I may sometimes come off as being "aggressive" but I am really just trying to let the person know my feelings and try to make them understand because I am a huge communicator. Maybe it's because of what I do but I think it's because I didn't have that communication with my father so I always want to make sure me and a guy are on the same page and if were not I want to fix it :-x..I really could go on and on about this topic because a lot of things will tie in..but for now this is it. I wonder if I could turn this blog into a book or something..I swear I'm not the only one feeling like this and I think me writing this is and will help someone, well I hope..till next time :o)

Thanks for reading Lovies!

-Candice Nicole