So as I sit here writing this I have a lot on my heart. I will try my best to express my feelings in the correct way, so please bare with me. It may seem a bit jumbled, but that's how my emotions are right now..
At this very moment I am second guessing myself and my worth. I love this man who is too scared to be happy. I know and he knows he is unhappy with his situation in life right now but he is too scared to make a move..so do I make that move for him? Do I step away? Yeah, it's easier said then done. I know a lot of you will say "Candice..move one, he's not worth it" but deep down I know he is. I can see myself building with him (personal & business) I can see us being each other's best friend and confiding to each other about any and everything. I have ALWAYS been a person to fight for what I wanted and to take what I wanted, because in life nothing will be handed to you. However, when does it become too much? When do you know when to stop fighting? Would they fight for me?
I feel sorry for people who want to remain miserable and unhappy. You have one life and it is your DUTY and your RIGHT to make the best of it. Be blessed that you are here in this world. Yes, I know we all complain but at the end of the day we all need to consider ourselves being blessed and we need to be HAPPY. I have to say I found myself too scared to be happy once before but I woke up one day and said "why not candice" You have a lot to offer someone. Yeah, that is another thing..hoping that someone will know your worth..and all I have to say about that is "if you dont see his/her worth, someone else will" and "another man's trash can be another man's treasure"
If you want to constantly hang someone out there to dry they will eventuall dry off and walk away.......
So all I can say is that if you do find someone that makes you happy, hold on to that person because you don't know when you will find it again..so I guess it goes back to the orginal question "Too Scared to Be Happy?"..I guess the future will hold that answer..
Thanks for reading Lovies
-Candice Nicole
June 18, 2009
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I am just like the man you described, this article made me realize "why not do what you want to do, why not be happy?" Thank you.
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